Finally... im back to uni life...got to be honest...really missed it... the 8 a.m. classes, getting stuck in jam after class, chatting with fellow uni mates.... great time... last monday class sarted... meet all my uni and tutorial mates.... chatted like hell.. hehehehehe....but despite all this, im still finding it hard to get over certain things that occurd during my time away from uni...... the problem is that i just let my mind control me.. the biggest problem i have been facing since young...... i realise it and im trying my best to control my mind....
By the way... im in my final year now.... just two semesters to go.... i have told myself that im going to work really hard for these two sems... no more playing the fool..... but in order to do that... i need to control my mind... very badly actually.... I should learn how to move on and not look back at the past.... sometimes i feel..... do i mean anything to people???? I realise these days that some people i know dont seem to be intrested or care about my presence..... well, i dont really give a damm about it but at times it does get into you isnt it??you can look it in two ways... either they are so comfortable with me around that they can be themselves towards me or they are just not bothered about me...... but my question is, what did i do??? I know.. im complaining now... just couldnt help it... at times, i feel really scared to be alone.... i just get the feel of being neglected..... i know im not alone.. i have everyone beside me... but there is something.... or someone... i dont know.... thats missing now.....
I dont know what to do..... except just having faith in GOD....... He has never let me down in any way actually.. but when He testes me.... at times its really tough..... He is testing me now.... and all I need to do is to face it bravely and learn from it......... It will make me a better person.... one thing i realise in myself is that.... i tend to put others are more important than me myself.... a very wrong thing to do..... very wrong...... Hope i will pass this test as well.....
Hello Mr Ash.
ReplyDeleteI'm not sure if you read comments, but what the heck.
Well, some people supposedly don't care about your presence because they take your presence as a "normal, daily" occurrence, or that they don't know what else to talk to you when you guys meet. Unless the change is drastic (which you have to discuss with the parties involved), I think it's pretty normal...and it IS pretty normal to feel neglected when people treat you this way.
But the thing is this. You MEAN something to someone, even if there is only one in the whole wide world. And you being a God-believer, God sure has better plans for you in the future. He surely wants you to be on the right road, and surely "testing" you to ensure you don't go astray.
And the most important thing is that you need to adapt to people's attitude. In the sense that you act bubbly towards people who are open towards bubbliness and be less bubbly with people who are overly serious. Like the Malay proverb goes, "masuk kandang kambing mengembek, masuk kandang lembu menguak." But please do not sacrifice your bubbliness for others. It's what makes who you are!
Hope you have a good Uni life ahead and have fun always!