Finally... im back to uni life...got to be honest...really missed it... the 8 a.m. classes, getting stuck in jam after class, chatting with fellow uni mates.... great time... last monday class sarted... meet all my uni and tutorial mates.... chatted like hell.. hehehehehe....but despite all this, im still finding it hard to get over certain things that occurd during my time away from uni...... the problem is that i just let my mind control me.. the biggest problem i have been facing since young...... i realise it and im trying my best to control my mind....



By the way... im in my final year now.... just two semesters to go.... i have told myself that im going to work really hard for these two sems... no more playing the fool..... but in order to do that... i need to control my mind... very badly actually.... I should learn how to move on and not look back at the past.... sometimes i feel..... do i mean anything to people???? I realise these days that some people i know dont seem to be intrested or care about my presence..... well, i dont really give a damm about it but at times it does get into you isnt it??you can look it in two ways... either they are so comfortable with me around that they can be themselves towards me or they are just not bothered about me...... but my question is, what did i do??? I know.. im complaining now... just couldnt help it... at times, i feel really scared to be alone.... i just get the feel of being neglected..... i know im not alone.. i have everyone beside me... but there is something.... or someone... i dont know.... thats missing now.....



I dont know what to do..... except just having faith in GOD....... He has never let me down in any way actually.. but when He testes me.... at times its really tough..... He is testing me now.... and all I need to do is to face it bravely and learn from it......... It will make me a better person.... one thing i realise in myself is that.... i tend to put others are more important than me myself.... a very wrong thing to do..... very wrong...... Hope i will pass this test as well.....

7 Shades of Love.... Dil Se

I checked out a very old film's official website titled Dil Se... one of my favourite movies of all time not because it was a shah rukh khan's movie but it was my idol's movie.. MANI RATNAM... when ever i hear his name... i get goose bumps... the style of film and his creativity in filmmaking is a masterpiece.... while going through the website... something really attracted me.... the 7 Shades of Love... Dil Se..

The 1st Step
HUB - eyes meet,
it is like a touch..
a spark
- ATTRACTION

The 2nd Step
UNS-the touch of the eyes
was as if ......
INFATUATION

The 3rd Step
ISHQ-the flame of her body is felt,
his breath starts igniting
- LOVE

The 4TH Step
AQUIDAT- she touches him like a whisper
as if silence is mixed in her eyes,
he prays, a little consciously,
a little unconsciously
- REVERENCE

The 5th Step
IBAADAT- he is entangled on her path,
entangled on her arms..
Love now turns into
- WORSHIP

The 6th Step
JUNOON- Living is an obsession,
dying is an obsession,
apart from this..
there is no peace
-OBSSESION

The FINAL Step
MAUT-let him rest
in the lap of death
let him drown his body
in her soul
-DEATH

Fantastic movie by MANI RATNAM..... GENIUS........ A must watch movie... A very deep and realistic film by the MASTER......